Oy!  Is my schedule ever messed up.  After a long day of painting, I fell asleep around 7:30.  I woke up around 11:00pm with only one mission...Advil!  I've been fighting something for the past couple of days.  Nothing too awful, just something looming.  Here's praying a few more hours of sleep will cure what ails me.

Despite the busy-ness, I am content.  My days are filled with great joy as I know I am being blessed beyond measure.  God has been so good to me.  More than sustaining me...lavishing me!  I've had several people approach me lately telling me that I look....happy, content, peaceful. They seem to be mystified by it.  I'm not.  I know exactly why I am able to claim each and every one of those attributes.

Helena called today.  What a breath of fresh air that woman is!  As I shared with her about my disappointment in certain people whom I thought would love me through this situation (and in spite of it), she reminded me that most people simply don't know what to say.  I understand.  However, it's not like I'm brooding.  I go to church and smile, talk, laugh...I'm not unapproachable.  I don't dwell on my situation.  If I'm asked about it, I answer, but I certainly don't weigh people down with details.  And yet, the people I've grown closest to over the years seem to be the ones who struggle with it the most.  Go figure.

I doubt I'll be attending my church much longer anyway.  Since this whole situation began, not one member of the pastoral staff has contacted Brian (or me up until about a week ago).  In fact, Brian's been going to a different church for three+ weeks and still no one has bothered to get in touch with him.  Nope.  No time to love the people who helped build the existing church, gotta raise all that money to build a bigger and better one to house newcomers.  I'll shut up now.

It's late.  I pray sleep will come again soon, but I can't seem to shut it all down.  That's ok...the thoughts going around in my head are welcomed ones.  Sleep will come and when it does, my thoughts will be replaced by dreams.